One day I'm going to find you. I don't know where and even less I know how. I really hope that you were born by now! And even if it will take thousands of women to kiss, hundreds of dates to go on, tens of females to sleep with.. I can endure it. I will. In the name of love. In your name.
And before I put a ring on your finger and before you put a ring on my finger.. I ask you to do two things. Two things that are going to tell you the last words of who I am and of what did make me who I am.
First of all come with me to a country that was mine and which I left all those years ago. Go with me to see Roads to Freedom. An exhibition that makes me emotional, that makes me shed a tear or two, that gives me strength to believe in what I believe and hope that I shall be strong in a face of evil. See it - see a history that made a person you've chosen to love. A history I remember and that which happened before my times.
Then go with me to a concert of Kult. And watch the crowd. And gaze at my face when it gets all emotional. And let me be when I sing "this is Poland" standing there, in a land that hosts me but is not mine. And go to the very front, where the crowd is wild. It will take some stamina and it will cover you in sweat yours and others. It's totally worth it - be one of the Poles for a song, for a dance.
And that is all I ask. For you to fully know what you are choosing.
Sunday 29 September 2013
Wednesday 11 September 2013
I would never ever...
The year was 2008. My best friend and I went out to town to drink a lot and to look out for our great, one and true loves. We were kids back then. How little did we know of life and love and other diseases!
And in a childish but strong voice I said,
"One night stand? I would never ever..! Sex is the act of love. I would not find any pleasure in anything random."
A year later my first one night stand happened. I didn't know her name, we didn't say a word to each other, she was a girl in a hat. It was classic.
Last week I recalled my youthful statements and I laughed heartily inside (and outside to the amusement of my friends). And I thought of a Hungarian Princess that has recently left bite marks on my thighs for ten days and of the softest Jewish girl in a cubicle for £2. And I see the world differently than all those years ago and imaginary ideas shall not drink my juices again and I can tell true beauty from a beautiful lie! But still... on one point I was right - sex is best with love.
And whenever I am with a girl and I fuck her brains out I truly love the queen in my arms. She is mine and my love is forever, everlasting, for eternity, as long as we are together, until the next morning.
And in a childish but strong voice I said,
"One night stand? I would never ever..! Sex is the act of love. I would not find any pleasure in anything random."
A year later my first one night stand happened. I didn't know her name, we didn't say a word to each other, she was a girl in a hat. It was classic.
Last week I recalled my youthful statements and I laughed heartily inside (and outside to the amusement of my friends). And I thought of a Hungarian Princess that has recently left bite marks on my thighs for ten days and of the softest Jewish girl in a cubicle for £2. And I see the world differently than all those years ago and imaginary ideas shall not drink my juices again and I can tell true beauty from a beautiful lie! But still... on one point I was right - sex is best with love.
And whenever I am with a girl and I fuck her brains out I truly love the queen in my arms. She is mine and my love is forever, everlasting, for eternity, as long as we are together, until the next morning.
Wednesday 4 September 2013
Mary-Anne is a bitch
This is a genuine story.
I met a girl and I liked her. I tried to ask her out and her answer was a constant 'maybe but no but maybe'. I thought
"Come on, it's either fuck yeah or fuck off, why is it so difficult?"
After a week she said
"It's awkward, maybe I'll explain one day. It's a no."
Weird but I let her be.
End of story. Not.
Some time later I found out unexpectedly and very randomly that she used to go out with my X. I confirmed the information at source.
"How bizarre," I thought, "it shouldn't be hard to say so if that was the case".
Then came a realisation - I was cock-blocked by my X! Peculiar for we are all lesbians but true. Maybe a bit funny, maybe a bit bitter. Universe, what do you do to me?!
Then another realisation came - I was probably the last idiot in the village to find out what that was all about. And I wondered how come no-one told me anything. It would make sense to talk to me!
So I asked my friend if she knew. And from the first reply I saw that something very bad would happen. And it did. I couldn't stop it. After all, I'm just a Pole and I do everything with my full heart. When I love - I love, when I fight - I fight. I asked for an information and all hell broke loose. Bang! I don't know why and I don't know how and looking back at what led to this I can only repeat one statement - not guilty of anything.
I am, however, sad and angry and broken. So, dear reader, please take a minute and think well of me. Maybe even have a little drink to my health. And listen with me to Regina, cause Regina makes everything better :)
LISTEN TO REGINA HERE
I met a girl and I liked her. I tried to ask her out and her answer was a constant 'maybe but no but maybe'. I thought
"Come on, it's either fuck yeah or fuck off, why is it so difficult?"
After a week she said
"It's awkward, maybe I'll explain one day. It's a no."
Weird but I let her be.
End of story. Not.
Some time later I found out unexpectedly and very randomly that she used to go out with my X. I confirmed the information at source.
"How bizarre," I thought, "it shouldn't be hard to say so if that was the case".
Then came a realisation - I was cock-blocked by my X! Peculiar for we are all lesbians but true. Maybe a bit funny, maybe a bit bitter. Universe, what do you do to me?!
Then another realisation came - I was probably the last idiot in the village to find out what that was all about. And I wondered how come no-one told me anything. It would make sense to talk to me!
So I asked my friend if she knew. And from the first reply I saw that something very bad would happen. And it did. I couldn't stop it. After all, I'm just a Pole and I do everything with my full heart. When I love - I love, when I fight - I fight. I asked for an information and all hell broke loose. Bang! I don't know why and I don't know how and looking back at what led to this I can only repeat one statement - not guilty of anything.
I am, however, sad and angry and broken. So, dear reader, please take a minute and think well of me. Maybe even have a little drink to my health. And listen with me to Regina, cause Regina makes everything better :)
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